after over three long years of trying and dealing with health problems and COUNTLESS pregnancy tests, we are finally expecting!!!!!!! ^_^  we are beyond ecstatic!! ^_^  we are also six weeks along and can not wait until our first ultrasound to make sure the babie is growing as it should ^_^  we found out while we were on our trip in california ;)  it was after our last day in disneyland and the first night we saw the fireworks ;) we were told by some one there that the fireworks makes your dreams come true!! :) since we found out the next day i think i might bring all my wishes and dreams to disneyland and make sure that we stay for the fireworks ;)  sending LOVE and HAPPIE vibes to everyone everywhere!!!!!!!!! ^_^

sunday afternoon :)

hello to those who read my blog ;) i have so many catch up posts it's ridiculous! but i took some super cute pictures this last sunday and wanted to show them to every one :) at first i was just going to put my favorites on facebook, but then i had SO many favorites! :) so then i thought i would put a few on my blog with a little slide show of our sweet miriam dancing :) but then that turned into a bigger slide show ;) anyways it was LOTS of fun chilling with our kiddos in my parents back yard blowing bubbles, giggling and taking pictures! ;) my only complaint is i don't have more pictures of abe :( he wasn't interested in his bubbles very long & then decided to go inside and watch cartoons along with samuel :) though samuel does join us later at the end ;) so most of the time it was just me and mimzie ;) these pictures are all in the same order as i took them :) i have been trying to improve my photo taking by taking closer shots and by not being in such a hurry to take the shot :) some times i'm really impatient or i think if i take the time to frame the shot a little more my subject will have run off by then ;) but on sunday for a lot of the pictures i layed on my belly and tried to get as close to miriam as i thought looked pleasing ;) i also tried out my rainbow lens filter! :) and i LOVED it! :) i haven't felt like i had time to do that in a long while ;) i LOVE light rays and parts of the sun in my pictures! :) it brings a magical element in your photos! :) and well it's a way to illustrate in every day events that magic doesn't fade away as we are no longer children, but it really does still exist :) it also brings a connection from ourselves and the earth or space we live and connects it to the universe, since the sun is the center of ours ;) it's like the suns rays are like fingertips touching our face and warming our hearts with it's presence! :) it's saying you belong to me and i to you and we are ALL connected to each other! :) at least that's how i see it ;) wow! :) i've really missed blogging ;) guess i'll have to do it some more! :) oh and i can't take full credit for this slide show, although i took and chose the pictures and music, joshie helped me with the things i don't know how to do yet ;) things that would have taken me HOURS to try and figure out took him a few minutes! :) he is AMAZING and i LOVE him very much!!!!!!!! :) so enjoy! :) and i hope everyone every where can find love in their hearts for every one! :)


remember WORLD LOVE =WORLD PEACE! :) 

earthday 2012! :)

happie earth LOVE day 2012!!!!!!! :)

to celebrate our mother earth today we will work on the kiddos garden as a family and plant some lettuce, tomatoes and some flowers :) we will also take a maple tree sapling that is growing in an undesirable location and transplant it to a better one :) we don't have any experience with tree transplants, but i did some reading about it (i love the Internet) so we'll do our best! ;) and hopefully the

little tree will too! :) then we're going to take all our old plastic bags that i've been meaning to make something out of and take them to walmart to put them in the recycling bin :) then we will take a family walk on the centennial trail :) the whole while talking with our beautiful children about our beautiful planet and how it is our responsibility to care for her as she cares for us :) how we need to love her and everyone! :) those are our plans anyways ;) hope every one has a GLORIOUS day! :)

much LOVE and PEACE to EVERYONE EVERY WHERE ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

bloomsday 2012! :)

so i registered for bloomsday today! :) im prettie EXCITED! :) i'm a little nervous to i,ve never done anything like this before and with my inconsistency with my training i'm a little worried it will take me HOURS to finish ;) but i will try my best to remain positive and get as much exercising in as possible beforehand :)

i think i will love parts of it and really dislike the rest, but in the end i will be so glad that i did it! :) to me this is so important because i spent so long feeling sick and not knowing exactly why. and i struggled for a couple of years with trying really hard to loose weight and become healthy with very little success. and now that i have been on the medicine's i need to reclaim my health this event is a celebration of wellness to me! :) and i'm SUPER EXCITED for it! :)

i seek to be at balance and healthy in heart, mind, body and spirit! :)

LOVE and PEACE ALWAYS to EVERYONE EVERY WHERE!!!!!!!! :)

so yesterday we went to a wedding where their center pieces for their reception where vases with goldfish in them. wich was pretty and peaceful :) after clean up a little girl took two and they asked if we wanted any. joshie said, "no." ( i've wanted fishies for a while, but still dont have the puppie trained properly) then they said that they were gonna flush the rest down the toilet. and i gave joshie my big eyed,sad face & so now we have 18 goldfish! :) with no tank currently :)
sadly nine died last night, it was a pretty hot day & so i wasnt surprised.
i hope to find a tank at the thrift store tomorrow :) i've been reading up on how to take care of the little fishies & they require a lot more space than i thought they would ;) so if any one would like some i really only want to keep three :)
oh well we still saved them! :) now i hope they will survive ;)

oh & i dont think the bride or groom or any others involed were bad people :) i killed a spider that was freaking me out at that same reception. if anything i put the value of the life of the fish over the spider. and it is in those moments that a feel a bit of a hyporcrit :( although the fishies wont bite me :)
hope every one is having a SUPER LOVELY DAY!!!!!!!! :) especaily to those who just started their married life together yesterday! :)

OK I challenge every one at some point today to pull there shades down tight, lock doors (especially if you have little ones) and in whatever room or perhaps your whole house/apartment/place of dwelling, that you spend some time 30 minutes perhaps, maybe a couple of hours just doing normal things, like checking e-mail, practicing guitar, blogging, reading,etc. but that you these normal things completely naked :) no i'm not trying to be kinky :) but so few of us our comfortable with the thought of our naked selves :( and well we are all naked in our true forms of ourselves :) put aside the ideology of the fashion magazines and just be YOU! :) if you spend some time to day being in your most vulnerable and true physical form you will start to become more comfortable with yourself and perhaps except yourself a little more :) try it! :) and if you don't feel comfortable, try it again until you do ;) it might be a wonderful experience! :) though i am not responsible for anything that perhaps might take place between you and your significant other ;) have a trulie Beautiful day! :)

all my LOVE to EVERY ONE! :) happie julie :)

april 4th 2004

seven years ago today :)

You need to read this! :)

http://imaginepeace.com/archives/13767

Happiest of birthdays to my dad today! :) we love you lots & lots!!!!!!! :) and hope today you have lots of fun today and tomorrow! :)

life is AMAZING!!!!!! :) and every day, even on the crummy ones we should take a deep breath of life & be grateful we'er ALIVE!!!!!!!! :). Oh and happie chinese new year!!!!! :). It is the year of the rabbit :).

Hope every one is doing well and either finding or making peace and love in their minds and hearts and the minds and hearts of those around you! :) just think if every one would strive for that right now we would have world peace! :). I love you all! :) even those who don't like me ;)

happie julie :)

ok! woe! i feel soo much better now! ;)

how i feel right at this very moment

what the HELL!!!!!! do i SUCK or what!!!!!!!!

kourtney!

how could you do this to me again?! dont you care about me at all! you call me your sister and then i hear from you after not being able to contact you for a long time and then with out any notice at all your gone! you've moved some where else! and you cant take a few moments to txt, e-mail or call?! i love you kourtney! you have my number! i dont like this! it's been going on for years now! and it really hurts!


i dont know how to contact you so i'm posting this where ever i think you could possibly see it. i want to talk to my sister :)

love,
julie :)

i haven't been posting lately because i want to get all caught up with past events before i post something of the present. but today is my grandpapa's birthday...well of his earth life anyway. i was thinking about that the other day..i wonder, for those who have died and moved on, if they celebrate the day they were born into the next part of life? :) i think i would :)

so..

to my grandpapa :),

or as you are known to my kiddos paka paka :) we miss you and maga maga a lot! i haven't been able to open your memory book or grandma's book either that mom made. i've tried but it's all just too sad right now. but i will work on that because i'm sure it will be very fun to look threw :) i'm trying not to be too sad because i'm prettie positive that you and grandma are happie! :) but it has been a little difficult moving back home and driving past your house, seeing the places on the garage where your name once was, now just empty grey squares and realizing the place where i feel i spent a good part of my child hood i can no longer enter. and even if i could you wouldn't be there sitting in your chair watching golf or reading the news paper or books about the navy or eating your oatmeal as you did every morning from the same bowl. no longer can i hear you sing with your hand stretched out with a smile " i wanna hold your hand" :) i knew that part of that song from the beattles even before i knew who the beattles were :) how i wish i had that recorded so i could listen to it every time i want to feel close to you :)

so today joshie, the three kiddos and me will be visiting yours and grandma's grave. although it may be a little far to travel if you and grandma could swing by we'd love it! :) and we love you both!!!!!!!!! :) happie day of birth grandpa! :) what a fun birthday to be with your wife you had to wait over 16 years to see again and your two baby boys that you waited even longer to be with! :) we love you all!!!!!!! :) xx's & oo's :)

p.s.

i'm verie glad you came to earth & that you are my paka! :) and i wanna hold your hand ;)

joshua :),
you bring me more joy in this life than i thought was possible :) i still feel myself becoming giddy when i see you walk up to the door returning home from work :) it is when you are happie that i find myself at my happiest! :) some times it is as if you control all the elements of life because my life revolves around your well being and happieness :) i see in you the best that human kind has to offer :) and divine potential :) you are my sun and my moon :) my earth and my sky :) you are so much apart of me that i at times wonder where i end and you begin! :) i love you soo much that there are no words in the human language to express my feelings fully :) i am so blessed to have you as my husband, the father of our children, my companion in mischief and my verie best friend! :) happiest of birthdays babie! :) i love you with out end!!!!!!!!!! :)

julie :)

right now i am really confused about what are next steps in life are.....

we will be moving back to spokane for, i don't know how long... until we figure things out or start one of our plans there :)

i know i want to go to byu hawaii and i will have some work ahead of me to even start school which we are thinking of starting in spokane & then going from there

or does joshie go to grad school?

or does joshie take a short course to get a higher paying job & then i go to school?

& where do we do all of this?

questions????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

questions???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

questions?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

and i don't think we will have it figured out any time soon

in a good way :) we will figure it out when the time is right ;)

until then we have packing, moving! two weddings to attend! & help out with & lots of reading, praying & researching what it takes for the things we want & discovering our best options :)

it will be fun! :)

joshie jokes but in a truthful way that in a couple of weeks we will be homeless & unemployed :) but we have a place to stay ;) thank you momma & daddio! :) you guys are AWESOME!! :)

oh! and i have recently had some ideas for me to work at home that almost seem to have dropped from heaven & planted itself into my mind! :) but i will have to learn how to sow better ;) i'll explain later ;) right now i should probably get back to moving stuff :) man! i will have a lot to get caught up on in august! ;)

until then LOVE & PEACE TO ALL!!!!!!!! :)

i was lying in bed this morning thinking about something in my grandma's life and a question came up and i thought, i'll ask grandpa about it! :) then the next moment i remembered that he's not here for me to ask questions to any more.
i was a little sad at first, but then i felt happie :)

whenever i start feeling sad about my grandpa passing away these sad feelings are soon chased away by feelings of happieness because i think of how wonderful of a reunion he had when he was able to see and talk to his wife and two babies again! :)
i miss him but life is never ending! :) it just changes :) in a good way :)

and some day when joshie and me are old and white haired he and grandma and my two uncles will be waiting there to greet us :) along with all sorts of other dear family members and friends! :) oooo! and all sorts of ancesters and people that i would LOVE to talk to! :) i have a list of those people that i would love to learn from after this earth life! :)

ok i have been kinda sick lately ( nothing bad :) and i have some catching up to do, but i wanted to post a link to a great video that joshua made for a contest that ends soon. it's AWESOME!!! :) joshie is so talented! :) we didn't get the video entered in the contest as soon as we would have liked, so we are a little nervous about getting enough votes to get into the top 20 voted entries. (the first round of voting) so any help would be GREATLY APPRECIATED!!!!!!! :) it is a one time vote :) and THANKS SO MUCH!!! if you have already voted :) and if you are going to vote, THANKS SO MUCH to you too!!!!! :) also i was wondering if those of you who like the video too could pass the link along to others, that would be FANTASTIC!!!!!! :) and if any one who has a blog and wouldn't mind putting the link on their blog that would be AWESOME!!! :) i know i'm kinda Crazie Excited about it, but this is one of the first video contest where the video is what joshua wants to do..documentary :) well i hope every one is having a SUPER FANTABULOUS week end!! :) love and peace to ALL!!!!!!!!! :)


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V3XIOwhQEEU

it is 4:33 in the morning and joshua's alarm for work is going off......and i am feeling very sad...........still in mourning over a lost friendship.....but, the birds are singing so happilie and with a sweet kiss and hug from my joshie i am very excited for a beautiful new day!!!! :)

peace
-noun
1. the normal, nonwarring condition of a nation, group of nations or world.
2. (often cap.) an agreement or treaty between warring or antagonistic nations, groups, etc., to end hostilities and abstain from further fighting or antagonism
3. a state of mutual harmony between people or groups, especially in personal relation: try to live in peace with your neighbors.
4. cessation of or freedom from any strife or dissension.
5. a state of tranquillity or serenity.

-Idioms
at peace,
a. in a state or relationship of nonbelligerence or concord ; not at war :)
b. untroubled ; tranquil ; content :)

hatred is a plague that should be avoided at all

costs!

it's sickness sinks deep into your soul and

affects your

heart causing it to become cold and brittle

until it beats

no more for human kind

your thoughts and reasoning become void of logic

and

feeling

it wraps your eyes and plugs your ears until all

you can see

and hear is it's fear and anger

until all you are and embody is hate itself!